5 years

I promised myself I’ll write everyday

I knew this was the only way to reach you

I promised myself I’ll keep on pushing and never lose hope

I knew this was the only way to cross the distance between us

I promised myself not to get hurt while waiting for your answer, while waiting for your call, while waiting for your love

I knew this was me not wanting to believe that maybe it may be over for you though it’s not over for me

I promised myself I’ll find you and when I do find you I’ll never let you go

But I knew deep down inside that I can’t keep my promises anymore

‘Cause you want no promises from me

One Day

To miss you

Every

Single

Day

Feels more than a thousand heartaches

I’m still looking for you

Among millions of faces

And I’ll still love you

For a hundred years and more

But

I just need that one day

When I’ll stop missing you

Because

you’re

here.

 

 

Hope

Still believing that somewhere in this world, someone is meant to find me.

Why do we keep someone we can never have

Where do you keep someone you love but can never have?

In your mind?

-Where you form images of you being together.

-Daydreaming all day without touching reality.

In your heart?

-Where you reserve a space hoping it will be complete and whole one day.

– Where you can keep that person from the rest of the world,secretly loving, secretly waiting.

In your memories?

-Where you can replay the past and deny the truth about the present and the future.

– Where you can lie to yourself that you have already moved on because memories gives us false hopes that there is one more chance.

But the question should not be where but why. Why do we keep someone we love but can never have?

 

 

Unchanged

As seasons pass

Days turn to years

New becomes old

Laughter turns to tears

And as much as we want to let go of the past

It catches up

In unexpected times

In little moments such as feeling the rays of the sun

And reality hits you and you realize that after all that has been unsaid and undone

Love was unchanged

Sometimes and Always

Sometimes it knocks in the corners of your mind

Sometimes it echoes in the melody of a sad song

Sometimes it appears in a misty window after the rain

Sometimes it speaks through a poem read or a movie seen

Sometimes it comes back while watching time go by

But

It always leaves a scar

It always haunts you in your sleep

It always finds a way to bring tears to your eyes

It always breaks your heart

It always stays even when you want it to go away

and it always reminds me that

I’ve been missing you for so long.

More time

Wishing time would stop

‘Cause one day is not enough

To chase all my dreams

In a hurry, cannot wait

I beg time to be my friend

On fighting sadness

Silence the sad thoughts

Tomorrow the sun will shine

You will make it through

All the stars

Hopes are up

Daydreaming of happy endings

Replaying moments so dear

Wishing you’re here

Wanting to start over

Though things won’t be the same

Clouds suddenly disappear

And the sky has your name

Miles apart and now closer

No more daydreaming

No more waiting

Our future aligned

In all the stars

On loving yourself

Searching for lost time

Finding me in this journey

Love is within me